Here’s Jennifer Lawrence to show you how many fucks I give!
Or do i…
CURRENT CRUSHES:
1) Harry Styles- You know him from One Direction, right? HAHA!
2) Niall Horan- My sweet little po-tah-toh!!
3) Devon Bostick- I first laid eyes on him when I watched The Diary of A Wimpy Kid. I’ve had watched the 3 movies ‘cause I really freakin’ like him when he plays as Rodrick.
4) Max Thieriot- I first saw him in the movie Pacifier and I neves stopped liking him! It’s been seven years!!!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh
so much for that so-called unrequited love.
I think it isn’t love at all.
You know my brother has embarrassed me over the internet.
And yet she’s siding on him.
How is that fine with his fucking girlfriend?
I have never really like her. Someone, please calm me down ‘cause she’s really pissing me off.
So it started when I forgot to log out my Facebook account. Imagine how immature her words and actions are. My brother posted this status using my accounf, “Ok, I am ugly. Wait for my revenge” THAT IS SO MISLEADING. People would all think of me as some attention-seeker shit and stuff. And she’s on my brother’s side.
I told her, if my brother has some kind of a little respect, he wouldn’t do such misleading things. Guess what? She said I am being disrespectful, too for not letting my brother use his laptop. EXCUSE YOU, I am ‘not letting him use’ it. I am just simply using it. And my netbook died on me and hasn’t been fixed yet. My brother ain’t even excusing himself if he needs to use his laptop. I DON’T THINK I AM BEING DISRESPECTFUL.
Clearly, she knows nothing about me. Or how my brother’s been treating me. Even if she does know anything about my brother’s wicked actions towards me, she would be on his side. SHE’S IMMATURE and CHILDISH and self-confessed MISS KNOW-IT-ALL.
She called me SPOILED when she knows nothing about me. She knows I am the youngest and the only girl. She doesn’t know a fucking thing about me!!!!! She didn’t know how many months I have to starve myself to earn for a new phone. She doesn’t know hoe many times I have to endure the pain when my brother punches my arms, though playfully. My parents treat us equally and she has no fucking right to call me a spoiled brat. I can’t even tell get my mom to buy me a new pair of shoes or a new phone. I can’t even get my dad to buy me car or a new camera. Our food depends on my mom’s mood and not on my taste. So someone please slap her.
She’s a good girl but she’s too good to be true. Girlfriends are supposed to be keeping family ties tighter and not ruin it just because of their limited knowledge about their boyfriends’ loved ones. She’s totally ruined my good perception on her.
ME: OMG!11!! He’s gonna notice this for sure!! He’s gonna reply to me!!!!!!!! asdfghjkl!!!!1!!
REALITY:
In all honesty, I didn’t like One Direction.
A year ago, I first heard What Makes You Beautiful and I was sort of in an awe when I first laid my eyes on them. So there were 5 lads who melted my heart not only with their charming looks but with their voice that resembles perfection. I first liked Harry Styles then Louis Tomlinson. I would always listen to WMYB on my way home to fight againts aloneness. Just like a ‘normal’ fan would, I reblogged some of their photos, too. I observed as well that some of the blogs I follow has a thing on One Direction. But after some time, I began to distance myself from this fandom unawarely ‘cause of this teenage love with someone else. After months and months I had to admit that it didn’t take long for me not to see how beautiful they are anymore, except for their singles. Their photos on Tumblr WERE but normal guys to me.
But one event turned my life around and made me eat my words.
And that was the London Olympics 2012 Closing Ceremony. Imagine after going AWOL, I found myself crawling back to them. Watching them sing What Makes You Beautiful, I then felt a strong emotion ‘cause they’ve gone this far. I could’ve cried a river out of what seems to be happiness. I also felt so stupid for leaving them for some crappy guy who left me too. (but hey, I, of course, didn’t go back loving 1D ‘cause I felt lonely. It never even crossed my mind. Besides, it was 5 months before the closing ceremony)
In the end, I made it up to all of them.
I watched all of their Video Diaries and their Twitcams and followed some Twitter accounts who update us about 1D. I also made a 1D-related blog… All in all, they turned my life around like nobody else did. Now, I didn’t care about what other people think about me as long as I have them and their songs to inspire me to do things I wanna do, give me courage for everyday especially when I have some issues regarding people who are hard to deal with, and aslo to just simply be a carefree mofo! I’ve always wanted to let my parents know how much I love One Direction ‘cause I will never be as happy as I am now if it weren’t for One Direction aside from my family, of course.
And I promise not to leave them again.
No matter what happens, I will stick to my promise. I know how sucky it is when someone made a promise and not fulfill it. I will follow my dream to meet them and be friends with them. I would never stop for anybody and I won’t stop till I surrender. I will continue to support them in any way I can because they molded a part of my life and I can’t wait to be a part of the family. The rumors really are bull and no matter what the rumors will be, I vow to stay through thick and thin, rain or shine. I may fail to go to their concert here in my country or some opportunity I failed to take, but the thing is, if Simon Cowell didn’t tell Liam that he was too young to be on X Factor UK, then he wouldn’t be a part of One Direction right now. Let me live my life ‘cause this is me and my dreams will fall into place. Liam Payne taught me that. Harry Styles Taught me that. Niall Horan taught me that. Zayn Malik taught me that. Louis Toimlinson taught me that. One Direction taught me that.
Thank you! x
DISCLAIMER: I don’t own any of the posted pictures)
Still, in my half shallow-half well-lived existence of 17 years, I haven’t found what I am going to do with my life, or where I am heading. My chosen course, Bachelor of Science Major Psychology, on the contrary, I guess is the only thing I am sure of next to death. I am just an added observation to the statistic of people who are indifferent towards the way of the world. Don’t get me wrong, by ‘indifferent’ I mean someone whose tracks are bit out of the mainstream. I do and think differently. When people are far too busy doing this and that, I wander off into my world and deal things that are beyond my maturity level. Poverty, mostly.
So, I am just going to scout up in search of my destiny. Scratch that, I don’t care about my destiny. I make my own destiny happen. My life is all about me and the people I care about. It is about my dreams and how I make it all happen. Believe it or not, coming from me as a Psych major, finding myself is way out of my things-to-do. Isn’t it more exciting if I find myself as an enigma is some way? Like, it would be a lot of a whole new experience if I thought in awe, “Wow, I am this kind of girl? I could do that?” once in a while than knowing myself wholly and life gets duller and duller every time. I don’t know.
As of now, I’ll just be visiting bookstores. Smell books, read open books, look for some good reads, skim it, browse it and i’m all set for the day.
Or head off to the nearest coffee shop even if i am not that coffee person. At least I went to try out for a cup of coffee or something. Drinking coffee while sketching a scenery, probably a place in Europe or Korea or Japan. Something that will remind me of the beauty of life and its unlimited scheme of possibilities and space for creativity.
I love walking. (Wow for the sudden pace) I don’t know, I just love walking most especially in our subdivision somewhere near SM Fairview. Less noise, less people, less pollution and less road cracks. Not to mention wider roads. I love to think, it’s my forte. Lol. I think of my dreams. I think of a better place. I think of Europe. I think of anything. I want to break free! This world offers a lot to my mortal being.
So, to top it all off, my life is in a Kaleidoscope kind of way. I am sure yours too. It is colorful even if it spins you around most of the time.
This rainy morning, I accidentally watched this movie on HBO entitled John Q.
I know I have already watched this but only the scene when John Q was inside the police car on the way to jail and his son, Mike, followed the car and said, “Thank you.”
I wanted to cry at the end of the movie but I couldn’t. My parents were there too.
John Q is simply extraordinary. He’d do anything just to save his poor son’s life even if it takes taking his own. What’s nice about being John Q is that you can hostage a hospital and still people are in favor of you. He is a hero an eye-opener. He is found guilty but at least he is not sorry for what he did. He just wanted his son to get the health care he deserved and not anything more.
All in all, dad’s love are really immeasurable.
1. Isipin mo ANG GANDA GANDA MO!- Ganun talaga. Gusto mo ba maging Insecure? Maganda ka, yan ang isipin mo. Kasi pag inisip mo yan, maiibsan ang lungkot kahit broken ka.
2. Hindi Siya Kawalan- Wag kang iiyak sa mga taing nang iwan sayo… alam mo kung bakit? KASI HINDI WORTH IT ang luha mo. (Gusto mo ba pumanget!)
3. Ipakita mong hindi ka apektado- lalo lang lalaki ang ulo niya. Iisipin niya na “he has a power over you”. Yayabang yan at mas lalo lang siyang gagawa ng mga paraan para makita kang malungkot.
4. Matuto kang mag isa- Pag iniwan ka, fine! Wag kang magpakabog. Alalahanin mo ung #1~ Kung masaya na siya sa iba, so be it. Tao tayo, gumagawa ng desisyon. Desisyon nyang iwan ka. Sa tingin mo, worth it ba siya na kasama sa buhay mo? SA TINGIN MO BA???
5. Pray To God-Be thankful at nilayo ka nya sa maling lalake. Bagong buhay na para sayo. Napaka ganda mo para sa kanya. Wag mo lang babaan ang tingin mo sa sarili mo. Pag nag dasal ka lang, let God’s grace happen because God’s grace is the best :)
Kahapon Nag celebrate kami ng *drum roll please* MOTHER’S DAY! Sino nga ba naman ang hindi mag cecelebrate nun? Hahaha.
Nag simba muna kami sa may Eastwood. Dun sa Holy Family Church. First time ko mag simba dun :) Kasama ko nga pala sila mommy, daddy, Mommy Old at Daddy Old (commonly known as lolo and lola.) There, so binigyan sila ng roses ni Fr. Arnel…
Andun pa nga yung Pope Mobil na ginamit ni Pope John Paul II nung andito siya nung 1995. After that nag gala gala na kami. Kumain muna kami sa may Serye Cafe Filipino.
Tapos nag bowling at nag bowling at nag billiards pa :D Oha! :))
Alam kong masasaya din ang mga Mother’s Day ninyong lahat!
Mabuhay ang mga nanay!!!
Sa maraming dahilan, masaya ako. (paulet ulet???)
Una sa lahat, Masaya ako dahil andito ang mga grand parents ko na matagal ko nang hindi nakikita. Sinundo namin sila sa NAIA Terminal 3 nung isang araw lang. Feeling ko daig ko pa ang ikakasal sa sobrang axcited ko na makita sila. Haha,
THEN later, pupunta yung lolo at lola ko and the whole family sa father’s side para naman magkamustahan yung dalawang side ng grand parents ko :D Ibig sabihin din non, andito yung mga pinsan ko mamaya!!!!!!!! Grabe, sobrang masaya lang talaga ako pag andito sila, nakakwala ng stress! :D
Eto mas pampawala ng stress… Sabay sabay nating isigaw… ANG GANDA GANDA KOOOOO!!!!!!!!!
(oo, lahat tayo maganda!)
Have a nice day!
